just found this. wow. really letting you guys in on this one. she really was amazing. it just never made it into her hands or eyes. not sure why. hope to find this again soon… here is a piece of it (and me):

“last night… i wasn’t just running my fingers through your hair… I was running my fingers through strands of proof. proof of life. of living. of living in the name of captivation. as you are my reason and excuse for both. every breath you take is another reason for me to fight. i blink less when i’m around you. my eyelids are in a constant battle with what’s underneath as i cannot stop sending you examples of pure admiration. every millisecond spent closing my eyes during a blink is one millisecond wasted as i could have spent them directing them towards you. do i love you? i’m not sure. it is possible. if I do… it is by far just a fraction of what truly goes through whatever is beneath my skin and skull. i’m not sure the word “love” truly wraps itself around the speed of my heart when you laugh or leave a lipstick stain on my forehead. words are invented constantly and I do not believe i have found one that is quite worth your name or the feelings you provoke. I guess I’ll keep searching…but for now… i guess love will have to do. because with you… the world doesn’t spin… it dances. it’s remarkable to watch. sometimes i just like to sit back in a dark corner and watch. not only watch you… but to watch how much more beautiful the world gets when it’s around you. it’s amazing how much light can be seen from a dark corner. the leaves don’t fall to the ground… the ground rises to them. the night isn’t a dark sky with stars… it’s a golden glow with dark spaces in between. you are not only the need to breathe… but the want to breathe. the absolute craving for more time… yes, i know one day my heart will stop…. but my love for you will not. so just know that as long as the world is dancing… whether i’m walking next to you in it or not… you are being held. constantly. unconditionally. endlessly.”

-alexander michael